Last night the Lad's devotion was on how Abraham trusted God with the big move, and I mentioned to the lad how trusting God is sometimes hard. Why mom? Doesn't God just take care of us? And I said yeah, buddy he does but sometimes I forget to just remember that.
I need to have the simple faith.
My lad, who was totally into math last year, seems to have been struck by the "I can't do it" syndrome when it comes to doing it on paper. So I'm quite confused about this. He can do it in his head, but when it comes to just doing it on the computer or on paper he's struggles. I'm not doing anything different so it's like hmm... what's with this?
Now.. I did talk with him about it and all I get from him is "I'd rather play spider fbi mom". So could be a lack of motivation.
My health has been a bit of a struggle lately and yesterday was well.. started off poorly, then I felt absolutely great for a while, and well... then it went downhill again. by 8 p.m. I was not very happy with the world again. So that's a distraction.
In the midst of it all, Hubby dear preached a sermon last Sunday where he said "indifference to God is hatred of him". That struck a cord in me of thought. There are multiple times during the day when I don't think of God AT ALL. I simply don't. And in the bible we're told to be in state of constant prayer and praise. So often I fail at this. I fail to think of him, I fail to thank him daily for all that he has done, or will do. I simply don't even think about it. So what does that mean?
Does it mean that I don't truly love God with all my heart?
Or does it mean that I simply allow myself to get totally distracted from what's truly important?
I don't know so ....These things I ponder on this day.